It was too much, yesterday, this sense of being so far away. I went out with Aveline, out to air-conditioned shops and pushed her around in her stroller while I looked at pretty things. And everywhere I walked, I saw friends shopping and laughing together. And I walked around, alone.
I felt small and very far away from home.
Later that night, I cried. I try not to, I really do. But sometimes, when everyone you know is either 46 hours to the west or 25 hours to the north, you just can’t help feeling a little sad.
Image: Day Three (Friendship) of the August Photo Challenge.
A Lonesome Walk
“The loneliness of the Christian results from his walk with God in an ungodly world, a walk that must often take him away from the fellowship of good Christians as well as from that of the unregenerate world. His God-given instincts cry out for companionship with others of his kind, others who can understand his longings, his aspirations, his absorption in the love of Christ; and because within his circle of friends there are so few who share his inner experiences he is forced to walk alone.”
– A.W. Tozer, The Loneliness of The Christian
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Hi dear.
I empathise, truly. It’s hard when everyone moves away. Or, even when you move away. My last closest friends have all moved far away. :(
If you were here I’d take you & Aveline out. We could so sit in a shady cafe & chat. STill, here is better than nowhere. It’s been a lonely week here too. *sigh* big hugs all the way around.
d, xo
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It is hard..I know…I’ve been there…a lot! I wish I was there to give you a hug because it sounds like you need one. It’s nice that you have your daughter so really, you aren’t alone and I hope you can take a little comfort in that. Know that this is just one phase of your life and it will go by quicker than you can imagine; it really does. Blessings to you. xx
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I SO relate to this! : ( Have felt this so often…and even more weird to come home and feel it where I grew up. I, too, am looking forward to a new phase of friendships – to being friends with GIRLS again. I so have missed this!
No matter what, I miss you SO!
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Oh my goodness, do I understand that feeling! We live in France alot of the year by ourselves. And as much as I love the lifestyle and try to embrace it all, it is hard. It is hard to be without friends and family and then have a language barrier to deal with it on top of that. But it is a great life experience I wouldn’t trade. Hang in there!
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hey gina, i can understand how you feel! it’s hard to know loved ones are so very very far away. in these moments i’m ever so grateful for the age i live in (which i am not always, but in this sense: yes!), that we have internet, emails, webcams, skype…
even so, it hurts to see people being able to really hang out with each other. i wish you much strength!
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